Today I had quite an interesting experience. (or at least I think so). Well see I really love animals, anyway earlier I was talking on the phone to one of my friends not really paying attention to what was going on around me. Well I turn around and see my dog dragging something across the back yard so I go to see what it was. Well, it was baby squirrel. I couldn’t just leave it there to be eaten by my cat or dog; so I got my dog away from it and put the squirrel somewhere safe. I’ve a feeling that it might’ve fallen out of a tree or something; but it doesn’t look like it’s gonna make it….

Yeah It’s kinda been awhile since I wrote anything I’ve not really had much to say lately, and I’ve been really busy.  The play is comeing up soon so I am busy getting ready for that, which I don’t really know If I even wanna deal with that anymore I don’t really like dealing with it anymore, Mrs.White is cool but she is driving me crazy. But other than that things are going good I guess, I just want school to be out for the summer I can’t wait!

Alright so, things had been going good for about a week then today i decided to call my dad up to see how he was. Big mistake..well everything was fine till he called back like an hour or so later. He was either high or drunk, possibly both. He’s starts in with all his bull shit.And then he gets mad at me told me to go to fucking hell…so yeah you can imagine how i feel right now.yeah that’s not even the worst part. I just found out there was 25 thousand dollars in the bank that was MY money I had no clue about this; my mom divorced my dad to get to this money spend six thousand on a car for my sister, then no one knows where the hell the other 13 thousand or so went. this was my money under MY name that i got from when my arm broke never even knew about it. The most fucked up part is my mom by law owes me 25 grand and i’ll never see a fucking cent of it!!!..so yeah i am pissed…

Sorry about this little rant i just had to get it out somehow..

Lately, things have sucked horribly. I don’t really know what to do anymore. My grades are dropping which is not a good thing because that is all I really had going for me besides theater, but today that got ruined by my drama teacher. I’ve worked so hard put my everything into this and get nothing out of it; I can’t stand that. I worked just as hard or harder than other people and what do i get? NOTHING! i am tired of it! I can’t take this anymore!! this town sucks, I have nothing going for me here nothing at all, everything just goes wrong, backfires. What am I gonna do? I really have no clue…I don’t know how much more of this I can take….Are things gonna get better? I would like to think that, but after everything lately, I don’t think i can beleive things will get better anymore. I try to keep telling myself they will but I can’t beleive that anymore…I think what really lies beneath all of this is that I just want to belong somewhere anywhere…but yet I don’t seem to belong anywhere..I can’t play sports, because i am too uncoordinated, apparently i can’t act either…Is it really too much to ask? I don’t think so…all of my friends have reasons to be happy, and yet here i am alone in this world,with nothing…

I do have my mom, but still family isn’t quite enough, I do love her more than anything because she is my mother, but it’s still not belonging. I know she loves me and cares about me, but i need something more than just knowing that. I feel completely worthless…even my sister has it better than I do, because she belongs somewhere….I look around at people and I know their lives are exactly perfect, but I see how happy they are, but I feel that I can’t be happy because every time i am it gets taken away from me just like that.. The thing that hurts me the most is that I look around and see how everyone enjoys being with their families around here but I can’t do that, my family isn’t like it should be it’s not whole, and it can’t be fixed… My dad doesn’t even live here I don’t get to see him but like twice a year. You would think that because I am a girl a father figure in my life wouldn’t matter so much; but it does..It matters a lot. I need a father there to be proud of me, to tell me how good I am doing to tell me that he loves me.. I try to act happy alot but I just am not, I just don’t want people seeing how screwed up my life really is.I know these problems aren’t that big compared to most people I know I shouldn’t be complaining but after so much it kind of just weighs me down..

I just really don’t know what to do anymore..I am at the end of my rope..

It has been almost fifteen years since in last snowed here in Demopolis. Well this morning i woke up and guess what! the ground was covered in snow! It snowed for like four or five hours. This will be the first snow fall i can remember i am so happy!

This really just is simply amazing.

Snow in the snow

My neigbors yard, I thought this was pretty

As for the talent show I didn’t get in  it…I did ok i suppose but it just wasn’t good enough; but oh well there is always next year.

Well this afternoon I was sitting around my house bored, yet again for the fifteenth million time, and I was just thinking. I’ve not really been doing very much lately, because I am a lifeless dork. Well anyway back to the whole point of this thing. So i was sitting at home thinking. Well I decided i am gonna try out for the talent show at my high school. People have been telling me i should ever since the last play i was in, so now i am gonna go for it. I am going to be singing..We’ll I am sure there will be a later post on here telling you how things turned out.

The other day i was bored, so I was like hey why not take a picture of my cat. I thought this was rather funny because he’d been sleeping and i was bugging him. But yeah I just noticed as i was uploading this picture to my computer that his tongue was sticking out…Don’t really know why that’s important but i just thought I’d share ^^ My cat

Well, I am new here and don’t really know where to start. I am not really a huge blogger i guess would be the word for it but i was asked to join so I thought I would. So far I’ve pretty much figured things out for myself. But yeah today was an interesting day I suppose I went to school like any normal day, had a project due, but right when we got in that class they let school out cause of bad weather so i got an extra day on the project yay me! Well we got out at like 12:30 and then I came home; well there have been tornado watches and warnings ALL over the state of Alabama all day long, and alot of it has skipped around where I live; but it was storming horribly earlier. Finally that’s over with. Also i am excited about this upcoming semester at school I am in the drama program and we are getting ready to do a musical Suesscial the Musical to be exact I am so excited can’t wait! Well I guess that’s enough for now.